GETTING LOST. SEEKING HELP. GIVING THANKS.

lost

I hate getting lost.

Completely. It must be the Virgo in me who expects everything to go perfectly as planned.

Only that we know things have a tendency to take on their own flow, even if that flow is not necessarily what you had in mind.

The universe has a wicked sense of humour. Unfortunately for me, I don’t, which ultimately means that I take everything personally.

Driving is what showed me that I really don't like getting lost. I am not a fan of new routes. I prefer well established familiar ways and roads that I can comfortably say I know like the back of my hands.

This is the story of how one Saturday I agreed to a birthday invitation because I knew the route I was going to take.

Now, driving in the wee hours of the morning, when the sun is risen, during the day, at dusk and at night are very different experiences. When you imagine that you know the route during the day, come night time I felt extremely paralyzed by the stark realization that I didn't know my way around as I thought I did.

Two trips round the roundabout not really knowing where I was headed but convinced that I did, I did what frustrated Bree would do.

I parked my car by the roadside and took out my phone.

A quick prayer later, I did what I should have done in the first place.

Opened Google maps and typed in the name of where I was going.

True to form, Google showed me that I was somewhat on the right track. The up side of that was it managed to help me feel a lot better about getting lost. Then in quick succession I felt frustrated at not knowing. I felt thrown off balance and flustered.

I got to where I was headed to alright, but not without a fight.

A text to my mom later made me pause and reflect on the lessons I had to learn from this experience.

getting lost

:: Getting lost feels like failing to me. I need to know where I am going. Somewhere at the back of my mind is this great fear that I won't know what to do.

:: Admitting that I am lost and asking for help makes me uncomfortable and I feel incompetent- something I am not accustomed to.

:: I did learn that help is ALWAYS at hand- even in the form of Google. You just have to be open to receiving.

:: When I did eventually find my way, all I could say was Thank You. The powerful lessons came in the form of a very humbling experience.


YOUR TURN:

Do you get rattled when something doesn't go your way or when you get lost?

How do you handle that?

 

{P.S: IF YOU WERE MOVED BY THIS PIECE OF MY HEART, PLEASE PASS IT ALONG TO YOUR TRIBE.}