A Serious Case of Comparisitis
It's been an almost intense week by any standards. When you are birthing a new project and you have one million tasks you need to do and are having a hard time figuring out what to do first and what to leave out [anyone relate? Can I get an amen even as we burst out Serenity?]
Learning curves are more often than not our best teachers. Over the course of the last month, I have been on discovery mode, growing and expanding to fit a greater creative vision.
And on that very exciting note, I am pleased to announce my baby. It's been one massive project and having it up on the ground and onto the cyberspace is pretty exciting.
In the process of doing this, on most days, I know I am doing great. I high five myself and pat myself on the back. It feels like twenty steps forward. I am my greatest cheerleader at such moments and I revel in the ecstasy of watching my ideas morph before my very eyes.
However, on some other days, overwhelment checks in hard and furious and that feels like two hundred steps backwards. These are the days that I get sick.
The Mariam-Webster Dictionary defines comparisitis as 'the cancerous disease that causes you to compare yourself to everyone around.'
Welcome to this week's episode of 'Keeping up with the Kardashians'- Bree Edition
That was the case a few days ago. While the support of a community is a great thing, it can also take its toll. Especially when it comes to show and tell and everyone is doing such a great job. There is nothing as disconcerting as looking around one minute, telling yourself you are doing well, then checking out someone else's offering and thinking 'hmmmm...I could do that' or 'that one looks much better.'
Inspiration from other people's work is awesome but it doesn't feel so when you end up criticising your own creation. We all know that criticism is the archenemy of creativity.
The good thing is that such moments of self-doubt form a normal part of the creative cycle.
This is for you if you are struggling with getting something off the ground because you are wondering if someone else has done it and said it better than you ever would.
This is for you when the bug bites and all you have is 20 hours of comparison eating at you.
It's what you do after that moment that separates the wheat from the chaff.
You cannot spend half your time comparing yourself to the rest of them.
The best thing you can do for yourself is to take a few steps back and reassess. I have been stuck at certain points, annoyed by others, irritated and totally thrown off balance.
But as I have come to see, as long as you keep moving, pace doesn't really matter.
On a side note: I hope you like this new bit of creative as much as I have enjoyed putting it all together. It will of course undergo some transfiguration in the coming few months but thebreespot still remains as the portal to share my thoughts and inspiration.
I invite you to share in on embracing pleasure in the everyday. Let's see where this journey takes us.
PS: your thoughts and feedback are absolutely welcome.